Spoilers ahead for The Handmaid’s Tale Season 3 Episode 6. Nick Blaine isn’t exactly who he says he is, but those who watched the first season of The Handmaid’s Tale already knew that. Still, it’s shocking to watch June finally discover that Nick’s identity is all a lie, and has beenthis whole time. While Max Minghella tells Bustle that Nick’s lies serve a purpose, Elisabeth Moss says that purpose might be to help June realize the only person she can trust is herself. But will that be enough to save the women of Gilead?

Episode 6 is a pivotal one for June (Moss), who is taken to Washington D.C., now the capitol of Gilead, to help Commander Waterford and Serena try and bring back Nichole. Not only does she discover that the handmaids in the capitol have it far worse than she does, she realizes that Nick (Max Minghella), now a commander, hasn’t been as honest with her as she thought. A realization that comes just one episode after June sends a message to Luke revealing her affair with Nick, a man, it turns out, she doesn’t really know.

Nick isn’t just a driver and an Eye with ties to the resistance, but someone who’s “not to be trusted,” according to the Swiss diplomat, who June was hoping Nick would give Gilead’s secrets to in exchange for Nichole’s safety. “I think things are just not what she thought they were,” Moss tells Bustle at Hulu’s press junket in New York City, “and these allies that she thought she had, she’s losing them.”

It’s not just Nick that June loses in D.C., Serena (Yvonne Strahovski) also chooses her husband over the rebellion. For June, Serena picking the patriarchy over her is a betrayal of the highest order. Perhaps that’s why Serena seems to take pleasure in telling June that Nick served Gilead in the war, a sign he is really no different than Commander Waterford and June might not be so different than her. “We wouldn’t be here without him,” Serena says of Nick’s role in Gilead’s creation, which started with him joining the Sons of Jacob. “All this time you spent together and he never mentioned anything?”